OLEVELS IS FINALLY OVER&DONE.

And here's a proof to show that it's actually the big monster we've always thought it was.

Done.


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& I THOUGHT TO MYSELF, "TRUE."

Now we wish we could do it all over again.
Be a kid. Be carefree.
When we couldn't care less.
When nothing bothered us.
When nothing else mattered besides having fun.

When we actually had a life.

Done.


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BY THE END OF THIS WEEK.

All that will be left is a stack of empty files - once stuffed with notes and test papers.

The last horrid paper's over. All that's left for me, given the blessing of a subject combi I have, are two MCQ papers on Thursday and Friday. That gives me 2 days to revise. Oh-suhmmm.


Weeks before O's were horrible. Quite. Thoughts of the papers kept me awake at night and woke me up in the morning. Seems like those lame parts in movies, right? But, seriously, it really happened to me.


I was scared. And if you know me well enough, it's really unusual. I was scared of the exams. I was scared of not getting the grades I went to get into the JC I want to go to; afraid that I won't be able to get into the JC I wanted to get into with my friends. Afraid that I'll end up in a different JC alone. Afraid that I won't make any new friends and I'll spend my whole 2 years in JC sad and lonely. Afraid that I won't be able to cope with the pressure, with the lifestyle. Afraid of every possible thing to be afraid of. And I don't know why.

I guess I'm just not ready to let go of my life now. SC. Oldham. My roommates. My friends. The people surrounding me; the familiar faces I see everyday. I'm scared of losing everything. Scared of starting new. I'm scared of the change that I know would be inevitable once I come back next year after the hols. I'm really really really scared. Really scared. And it's eating me up.

I can't let go. Pathetic as it may sound, I just can't imagine myself living away from everyone. I've gotten used to everything here already that I can't imagine living anywhere else with any other people. (I mean except for home cos you know, home is where the heart is. Lols. Now back to being emo!) I don't know if I'll be able to have the same relationship with the new group of people that I'm going to meet next year. Don't know if my roommates next year will ever be as bonded and as comfortable with each other as how my roommates are now. I don't know if I'll be able to make any new friends in my new school and if I'll be able to fit in. I'm scared, dammit, and it's so not healthy for my self-confidence.
*"I'm egoistic, I'm conceited, I have no shame" repeat it to yourself, Pat. And once again*

I know I won't be able to keep things as they are and that we all need to move on to progress in life and that change is an inevitable thing and yadda yadda yadda. But to all my friends I JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT WE'RE ALL GOING TO STILL HANG OUT A LOT NEXT YEAR OKAY AND KEEP IN TOUCH AND REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY, I WANT PRESENTSSS OKAY AND LET'S VISIT EACH OTHER REGULARLY OKAYY.
I don't know what to do without you, suckers. You all define me. You make me what I am.
You complete me.(Okay, this last one's just plain cheesy)


Quoting from my EOY post last year.

THANK GOD.
:D
He's really mighty to save.
&because of Him, I never worried.

I never found anything to worry about :)
because I believe that
"I can do everything through Him who gives me strength."
Philippians 4:13


All you've got to do is PRAY :DDD
"Do not be anxious about anything,
but in everything, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving,
present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts and your minds.."
Philippians 4:6-7

AMEN :)

Done.
May God bless you, always :)


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I'M BACK AND BLOGGING!

This year's mugging photo.
(See last years EOY blogpost)
I'm making this a tradition now :3

HELLO HELLO HELLO HELLO~
After almost 2 months of blogging hiatus (kind of), I'm finally back!XD

Yay yay yay! So why was I gone for quite a long time anyway? I was focusing on my O's, revising and studying very hard (quite.. not very.. but quite. heh) and so yes I left without a warning. But who cares anyway, right?
Not like anyone's interested in what I have to say all the time. Heh. *emode, emode*

So, there's been loads of things that's come up lately. Quite.

For starters, I lost my wallet just minutes before our school's Olevel briefing. Gahr. And all my cards were in there. Plus that letter, that uber short note that I've been keeping in my wallet for more than two years now. HOHHHH DDD: *sigh* Well, I've moved on. I'm all better now. Good thing all my photos aren't in there anymore.. I think. Hohhhh DDD:

Whuddd elsee-uh? Oh yeah hor, OLEVELS. (Hoho, "yeah, hor" Sheesh)

There's the big O's monsters. I'll show you a proof once O's is over!!
It's really really freaky. Well, not really. Quite lah, but nah. Hoho. I used lah.

The first week went by so fast - first day was English and the rest of the days were Maths papers.
IT'S OVERRRR!!
I guess they made it that way to make us suffer more for the second week, which is this past week (which is, moreover, finally done!!!).
It was SS + Chem on day 1, Geog on day 3 (pity the Geog+Physics people :S) and finally Lit and Bio today (which was this afternoon so it's over now!!!)

I refuse to elaborate on the exams here on my blog - to rant about the stupid mistakes I think I've done, the things I wished I did and whatnot. I believe that whining about the exams when it's over is actually a waste of time cos, really, no matter how much you whine and grumble and complain about it, there's nothing you can do anymore. What you wrote on the papers won't change anymore; that's that and you can't do anything about it.

The best thing you can do is just to move on and take the remaining exams, rejoice during the holidays and come back all set to face your exam results with courage and an open mind.

If it's good, then well done; you've made all your mugging worth it.
If it's not as good as you hoped for, then perhaps it's just really what you deserved as, well, what you reap is what you sow right? You'd just have to accept it and do well in JC :)

No point crying over it - well maybe a bit cos I know all of us worked so hard for this and I would understand a tinge bit of disappointment over results which wouldn't meet our own personal standards (take note, personal standards. It's all about what you think.) Oh goodness, I'm being so naggy now. Heh.
Reminder to self: Remember what Mrs. Chan said, Pat?

C'mon, it's my own opinion. No offense intended for anyone.

So. So. So. So. So. So. What else.

Oh, oh, oh. I'm loving Shinee now!:):)
After Ring Ding Dong, I've decided to dig in much deeper and so I found AMIGO.
Yaay, my Taemin's so awesome. Hoho.
*gets headshot by other fangirls*

Erm.

I've realized my ultimate picker-upper (aside from food, I think.) KPOPPPP :DDD &fangirling. Heh. I've been often depressed lately. Major. I think it was PMS. Dunno. Then I listened to Kpop and danced to it and it made me happy. And I went to find Kikita to fangirl with her, and that made me happy too. :)
So I want a Kpop group for my birthday next year, okay? HOHOHO.

Done.


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SERIOUS FLOOD IN THE PHILIPPINES.

it's even more serious in other areas. houses have been totally submerged under water.

Typhoon Ondoy came, bringing a month's worth of rain in just 6 hours.
"dumped a total of 455 millimeters of rain in Quezon City alone in 24 hours, compared to the 250 millimeters of rain that Hurricane Katrina brought to New Orleans in Louisiana in the United States in 2005." (source)
caused serious flooding in Metro Manila (submerged 80% of the area) and nearby provinces.
200+ reported dead. hundreds of thousands "displaced" (so far)
How you can help? Click the link and find out.
http://www.yanswersblogph.com/b4/2009/09/29/how-can-we-help-victims-of-typhoon-ondoy/


It's really very serious.
It never flooded in our place, ever. Even before when it rained for 3 days, non-stop. But now, it did. And the water even got inside our house which is at least a meter above the ground.
Let's all help&pray and pray&help, everyone.
I thank God that my family and friends are safe
but there's still alot of people out there waiting to be rescued.
So let's all pray for them.
and help those people in need by donating basic necessities.

I know I'm not in any way able to go home and help with the rescue operations going on and this is all I can do right now. But I hope this still helps.




Done.


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BDAY POST

"So, how old are you now?"
I pause.
"Errm. Seventeen.."


THE HORROR.
I'm getting older.
Older. Older.
I'm old.
I'm three years away from leaving teenage-hood for good.
(Ooh that rhymed)


I received less birthday wishes this year.
Sad :(
Might be because I changed my number last June so I lost other people's numbers?
I dunno. Maybe not.


But I'm still very really very thankful to everyone who wished me a happy birthday and those who sang birthday songs for me and those who gave me presents and those who even set up surprise parties for me (though they weren't very surprising, but still I was very touched awww) and simply to everyone who made me feel happy and warm and nice and special today (and yesterday, and the days prior to today) THANKS LOADS & I LOVE YOU ALL :)
and to those who didn't, make sure you'll get me extra special presents next year (and/or this coming Christmas >:D)



I really like getting notes. I like getting letters. They make me feel nice and special and loved especially when the message is touching (though it might sometimes be insulting at the same time)


It's also SNSD's HyoYeon's birthday today. Read about her fans putting up some large party for her on a Kpop blog. It would be really nice, being a celebrity like that. Your fangirls all over the world would be celebrating your birthday with you.
But then again, even if I'm not a famous Kpop star, I still have awesome friends who made sure that I had an awesome birthday. And I love them all for that. Aaaw.


My family arrived today (lol sounds like a parcel or sth)
I went out to have dinner with them.
Oh how I missed my dorky family. Yay. yay.
<3>


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND TO EVERYONE WHO RODE THE SAME TRAIN WITH ME TO EARTH THAT DAY :)
When God excessively blessed the Earth by letting an angel inhabit it.
Angel, me. Me. Okay? ME.

Done.


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ONE OF jAY’S CLOSEST FRIEND IN SEATTLE WROTE THIS ON HIS FAN PAGE FOR JAY

Source: http://kjpopbands.blogspot.com/2009/09/newsha-ji-won-fan-of-2pm-2ne1.html

“I’ve been keeping quiet for LONG ENOUGH! I set up this fan page as a friend of Jay. There is some few statement i need to clarify

1. Jay is being pressured to leave 2pm. I wouldnt use the word “forced” as “pressured” is more appropriate dont make me go in details on this.

2. MOST of the members of 2pm are quietly supporting on the boycott actions that K-hotties are doing now. One of the member told me WooYoung Cyworld message is to hint the Khotties to continue the boycott and fight for Jay, coz they (2pm members) also has been told not to back up Jay.

3. Jay’s wound is heeling on the previous days until JYP came out with another statement yesterday, which makes him fell into depression again. Please dont leaving message such as : JAY PLEASE COME BACk!. PROBLEM IS HE WANTS TO BUT HE CANT!

4. Friends like us has been helping him here and there hinting hottest that : Only fans can save Jay’s career now but it seems only 10% of the fans are paying attention on this. PLEASE READ THIS : ONLY FANS CAN SAVE JAY’s CAREER NOW!

5. Jay has been pouring all his hardwork for 4-5 years to become where he is standing now do you think he will give up coz of such matters and let everything go down the drain? He is really depressing now i chatted with him yesterday he even changed his display picture to an all dark screen. can u guys understand how he feels now?

6. Do you know how it feels..when you wan to tell the whole world about the truth but you just cant and all these is hurting you loved one? Im feeling VERY VERY HELPLESS thats why i am writing this.

7. and Yes, Jay has been reading all the comments in websites and all that you guys have been sending him and thats why he was able to feel better until the storm came yesterday. He was doubt about everything again. He is thinking of give up everything now. SO PLEASE HOTTEST, PLEASE TRY YOU BEST TO GET JAY BACK

8. Lastly, spread this.”


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KIKITAAAAAAAA!~

Done.


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LOVE, THE SELF-PROCLAIMED FANGIRL.

I found the lol-est and most accurate definition of fangirling so far in my attempt to answer my senior, ate Regina's question "what is fangirling????"

All thanks to Urban dictionary, I was able to give her an almost-accurate-yet-doesn't-really-apply-to-everyone-but-is-still-somewhat-true answer.
Pardon my long hyphenated adjectives. -.-

So, here it is.

FANGIRLING.

v. 1. the reaction a fangirl has to any mention or sighting of the object of her "affection". These reactions include shortness of breath, fainting, highpitched noises, shaking, fierce head shaking as if in the midst of a seizure, wet panties, endless blog posts, etc.

Oh, goodie goodie. Well, as for me, I only hyperventilate, shake and skip "as if in the midst of a seizure", make "highpitched noises" and blog about my fangirling fits.
No wet panties for me, thank you. That's just disturbing -.- :D

Done.


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FANGIRLINGGGG♥

PHOTOS OVERLOAD.
Kawaii~
None of the photos are mine.

CUUUTE 8D He's Thai, he's Thai! And his English is awesome! And he learned Korean! And he plays the piano! And his voice's damn nice! And he's so cute! XD

♥

lol at 2nd pic!!XD

&he does this pose! <333

hahahahaha!

eeeh~ XD

Teukie! So cute~XD

HAAAA ♥

lol Hyukkie's ♥

KKKKKKKKK!
I need to go now. Gahhhhh XD

Done.


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PSEUDOROMANCE.

I've been fangirling alot again lately.

Watched Hannah Montana the movie and Made of Honor consecutively two nights ago. Then I watched The Holiday the following morning.




aaaaah8D the dimples, the dimples!

Liked Lucas Till alot cos of his, quoting RC, "all-American boy charm" though Ankeeta and Asri might not completely agree since they believe that his face is not in proportion. But he's really very cute and charming. He makes the really cheesy nauseating lines seem sweet. Well, not really. Let's just say that it's easier to tolerate those corny lines because he's saying it; you can just get lost in his nice blue eyes and not care about the movie anymore. No wonder even Mrs. Logan found him cute XD


he's so dreamyyy. but yeah, he's old. still dreamy anyway XD


Fell in love with Patrick Dempsey. I've never watched Grey's Anatomy or any of his other tv shows or movies so I really knew nothing about him aside from the obvious fact that he's good-looking. So I watched Made of Honor and I loved him cos he's really cute and charming and his lines were funny and witty and he gave justice to his character and he's just so.. dreamy ^^ Even though his voice isn't manly low XD


looks + the British accent. yay. XD

And then came Jude Law. I've always liked Jude Law. He's hot, that's why. So I guess there's not much I can say about him.


dorky, dorky XD

Oh, yeah. I watched He's Just Not That Into You with Jesslyn last night and I liked Justin Long. Hah. He's really cute. Gigi and him looked cute together. 8D


aaaaaah, kawaii~

Oh, yeah. Even before watching all these movies, Kikita introduced Nickhun to me. And I fell in love. HAHA. I even made him a song ^^ Sounds like an obsessed fangirl much?
Anyway, yes. He's cute. And he's funny. I didn't really like him before. The first time Kikita showed me his photos, I found him cute. But after watching his videos and seeing how funny and dorky he is.. :D

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I guess it's just really more convenient to fangirl.
The guy's not real - well he is but there's not a high possibility that you're ever going to meet him - so there's no chance of getting hurt. There's a sense of security that no matter how much you hyperventilate over the person, there's nothing you can lose and there's no way you can get hurt. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
It's like having a Furby instead of a pet dog.
The Furby's way cuter though it doesn't really breathe and it can't really interact with you like a real pet can. But it won't die. And you won't ever cry over it cos it won't ever die. Sure, it can run out of battery. Your younger brother might smash it into pieces. But there really won't be any connection between the two of you and you can't love it the way you can love a real dog so you won't get attached to it too much and there wouldn't be any pain inflicted by its loss.
Too much run-on sentences there, yes. And even in this whole blog post.

But I guess you see what I mean.
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Done.


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